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I've been on watchful waiting for the last 4 years since my NSCLC in 2017. My wife and I rarely talk about my cancer. I've been married now for 52 years and am deeply in love with this woman but we just don't talk about my cancer. I think she's avoiding the conversation. I've been getting annual CT's for Lung cancer screening and two months ago a new spiculated nodule was discovered on my left lung. This is the lung my original cancer was. Because I have COPD and several complications from that my cancer was inoperable. I had Radiation type of surgery. Well the last 9 months I've had 3 CT scans because of new nodules. the most recent scan showed more new spiculated nodules in the right lung now and my PCP informed me that they are highly suspicious for malignancy.
This was three days ago and I still haven't had a talk with my wife. I don't know how to start the conversation or even what I would say. I think she's avoiding me that way because she's afraid of what we would talk about. Can anyone with a similar situation help me to deal with this. There's all kinds of things running around in my head and I need to talk to somebody about it. Not wanting to sound like I'm whining hear but I'm getting kind of antsy. I don't know what her wishes are and I know she doesn't know mine. Anyone with ideas please let me hear them. Thank you.